Questions with Screaming Answers

Sometimes, I feel like I am living outside of myself, watching what is happening from an ariel view. Its like I look at what I'm doing, or being asked to do, and thinking;

Why am I here?
How did I get here?
Why does God trust me so much?

I am growing more and more aware of something bigger than what I have signed up for starting to happen. I don't know how I am qualified, but what I know is that it is enough that God has called me. I believe He has called everyone. And more specifically, He has called us into friendship with Him.

Friendship? That seems so huge and simple at the same time.

Psalm 25:14
"The FRIENDSHIP of the LORD is for those who fear him, and he makes his covenant known to them."

How huge is this? I mean, that God desires friendship with us? That is impossibly beautiful.

Our staff team has had the privilege of having some amazing speakers impart some wisdom to us in our corporate staff meetings. One day, Dar Cunningham spoke to us, and one thing she said that registered in my heart was that "the JESUS in you is enough."
The Jesus in me is the only thing that I can refer to in explaining why I'm here. Why I can do what is required of me and more.
It is such a crazy thing to move into what God is doing. Its comparable to how I see the ocean move. When a wave is crashing, and you are crazy enough to jump into it, it can throw you down so quickly. The force of the wave makes you lose your composure...

Jesus is destroying me. In the best way. He sees my need for Him and He violently pursues me. Tearing down walls and embracing me like a child. I understand that sounds intense, but the picture I keep getting of His gentle and radical love brings me to such a new awe of Him.

How beautiful is our God! That he would do this? For anyone who wants it?

That is my Father.
That is my Lover.


Simply put, I am looking forward to the coming months. I still need more support, and I am working on getting more information out for you all this week. If you feel impressed to help me out with some of my living expenses and outreach fees (which is about $500 a month for lecture phase, and anywhere between $2,000-$4,000 for outreach), please let me know! I greatly appreciate any help. You supporters are what keeps me here. I love you!

Glory be to the living God,

Elizabeth